current state ( of mind )

went out wif my mom tdy. been enjoying these wkend outings wif her. i love the current state i'm in now. i get to see my kids more & keep my mom company. i finally feel like i'm fulfilling my duties as mom & daughter. and it feels wonderful to be so at ease with urself.

my day started in a tough way tdy. i was awake but lazing in bed when i heard my mom on the phone wif my mum-in-law. hearing her recount the things tat irked mi got my emotions out in the raw again. i was crying in the room as the conversation went on. it is now clearer den ever before tat my decision was rite. i love my kids. i feel bad tat i didn't get a man good enuff to be their father.