Everyone is alone
Haf u ever felt alone in a public place before? i was at bedok, outside changi cinema last nite & suddenly had a urge to cry. i sat on the parapet opposite wat used to be the open air carpark & my tears just flowed. i felt good afterwards, like i haf unloaded some of the emotional stress within. it wasn't even sobbing, my tears just flowed freely. it was dark & nobody walked tat way. when i turned around, i could see mac donalds brightly lit & i felt really distant from the rest of the world, where normality reigns. normal ppl dun cry in public, rite?? ; )
I had tis thought. no matter how many frens & family members u haf, u are still by urself all the time. i changed the greeting message on my handphone to "nobody loves u more than urself". Do love urself & follow ur heart. u onli live once.
where i was once fearful & held back due to reservations before, i endeavour to act as my heart dictates. my father is very ill & i wana take care of him. i'm on half day's leave tdy. gotta get back by 1.45pm...running late now. came hm to pack my things for moving back to my mom's place & update my blog. no broadband at pasir ris but i'll still update my blog during lunch. got some fotos from the agency seminar & yest's meet up wif ann to upload. where's my fire wire when i need it?
feels like i'm walking out, mayb i really am. but i felt empowered & quite relieved once i decided on tis course of action last nite. i can b close to my kids again & i'll get to see my parents everyday. everything that i do or plan should centre around myself & the ppl i love. i need to clear the clutter in my life & move on to the things tat matter & will make mi happy.
had a brief chat wif blinkymummy...thanz for "listening" to mi. will find more victims to unload my emotional buggage onto....haha
I had tis thought. no matter how many frens & family members u haf, u are still by urself all the time. i changed the greeting message on my handphone to "nobody loves u more than urself". Do love urself & follow ur heart. u onli live once.
where i was once fearful & held back due to reservations before, i endeavour to act as my heart dictates. my father is very ill & i wana take care of him. i'm on half day's leave tdy. gotta get back by 1.45pm...running late now. came hm to pack my things for moving back to my mom's place & update my blog. no broadband at pasir ris but i'll still update my blog during lunch. got some fotos from the agency seminar & yest's meet up wif ann to upload. where's my fire wire when i need it?
feels like i'm walking out, mayb i really am. but i felt empowered & quite relieved once i decided on tis course of action last nite. i can b close to my kids again & i'll get to see my parents everyday. everything that i do or plan should centre around myself & the ppl i love. i need to clear the clutter in my life & move on to the things tat matter & will make mi happy.
had a brief chat wif blinkymummy...thanz for "listening" to mi. will find more victims to unload my emotional buggage onto....haha
another posting by Livia @ 7/19/2005 01:01:00 PM
2 Comments:
At Wednesday, August 03, 2005 8:02:00 PM,
Anonymous said…
annette here. hope u are feeling better. can always find me on msn or call me if you need a listening ear. take care buddy.
At Sunday, August 07, 2005 11:50:00 PM,
Anonymous said…
Everybody has their own way of unloading their emotional stresses..some good, some bad...but nobody has the right to tell another if his/her method is wrong...as long as your way of expressing will not hurt yourself as well as others physically. Let me share a very classic example. A very close friend of mine buries himself with his work just to release his emotional stress. There's another good friend of mine will always vent his anger and frustrations at whoever that tries to talk to him...even his own parents. After reading what you have encountered at bedok, I certainly hope that such a nice and lively girl like yourself will not develop depression. Remember, there'll always be someone who cares about you... As for me, I used the most traditional and logical method of releasing my stresses....that is to talk about it instead of avoiding or bottling them...
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